Sunday, August 31, 2003

friday...
went out with qing after teachers day celebrations to buy pencil box den saw alot of her crescent sch mates..den she go and meet weide i go there and stone...and sleep ya la...den went home...did nothing as usual..but that is like so not the main point...the main point was that the pencil box was roxy and it was PINK...gosh i'm like turning girly after going to jc my fave colours are like pink and purple and recently i have been handing in assignments in purple...my god...like SAVE mEeeee~!!!
saturday...
woke up late went out...went home...went out...went shopping...retail theraphy...bought my fav pens...finally got my necklace bought some accessories...best part of all my mum paid...was abt to buy a pair of boots my bro's phone call saved her abt 100 plus bucks haha...nvm another time den...
sunday...
had tuition all day long...bleah finally got down to some maths...went to play pool with janice after that den went to play bball...bball ended early today...went with jan to coro to eat read some mags here i am typing this blog entry...gtg now haha to play some stupid comp game...tml going to go swimming and study...i ate too much today...bleah... =X

~WIND~ Wind wolves are social, but prefer small packs to large ones. Less names to remember. Wind wolves are fun-loving and care-free, but will protect loved ones with their lives.


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Friday, August 29, 2003

Your Name: Chan Xin Yi
Your Date of Birth: 10/23/1986
Your Question or Information: -

Past Perdhro - Unexpected gains, hidden secrets coming to light, discovering that which has been lost, spiritual evolution.

Present Uruz - Used to create change, healing, vitality, strength, to boost energy of magickal work.

Future Ehwaz - Abrupt changes, moving into new home and environment, travel, swift change in situation.

Cast the runes here:
Rune Caster

hEys man haven like updated in ages...yest was the last training man den like sprained my hand...let's like not even talk abt it...after that went to have dinner with nianying coz it was her b-dAe haha...^_^ she got to see aHeemM...yeap...cute rite? told u so...den today we baked cookies for teachers day...me qing and leyhong...kenny zhiyeu...matthew and shaun haha...man nowadays it is like...i'm always with qing justin matthew and shaun...yeap they really make my day though... =) thanx alot guys...hmm tml going out must go sleep liaox...

Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Congratulations, you're a Snow Fae, bringer of winter

What kind of female faerie are you?
Take the female faerie quizby Paradox

You are a phoenix.

What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox

Your magical style is Psychic.

What type of Magic do you work?. Take the Magical Style Quiz by Paradox

haha today was fun coz for some unknown reason or another haha...the sch like blackedout no electricity hehe...yeap...aiyah...ya LoRrr...den we were let off frm ach at 10.30? haha without ani lessons...den shaun matthew and justin came to my housee...yeap...den we slacked until 1.30 before we went to meet shaoqing in orchard and go shopping for teachers day pressies yeap...den after that me shaun and matthew went to serene to study lala...just came home...need to do pw now...

Monday, August 25, 2003

erm today is like the last day for interclass bball liaox...yeap finally...erm time to make the biggest decision to quit or not to quit la...darn it's like the guys in the team knowing abt my injury liaos so all the more cannot play with them...dArn...that like takes the fun out of EVERYTHING...yeap...oh today was fun hehe had nite study with shaun matthew justin and qing at serene macs hehe... =) tml we all going out together to buy teachers day present...den thurs they coming to my house to bake stuff for teachers day and nite study tml nite hehe so fun yay...finally sumthing to look forward to...

Sunday, August 24, 2003

You are a true nature girl!


Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Most people experience a certain amount of fear that their loved one could leave them for someone else. After all, these things happen, and when they do, it is usually very painful. You, on the other hand, appear to have a complete lack of jealous feelings. If you were honest with yourself while taking the test, this means that you are extremely secure, strong, and independent. You know that if your partner ever leaves you, you will survive with your self-esteem and dignity intact. You realize that even though you might love your partner very much, s/he is not the only fish in the sea, and that you would eventually find happiness with someone else.

haha yest was flag day...saw so many people...yeap...went to orchard at 8 plus den had breakfast with veronike...alvin...halim and zhiyeu haha...yeap yeap...den we collected the cip bag...den we proceeded to watch a tale of two sisters...rubbish lor shd have watched LXG...den glenn halim alvin and veronike came to my house...hehe...did some project work...slacked...played guitar...looked thru nanyang grad mag...which proved to be some source of amusement to glenn and alvin...haha...yeap...den after that went to return the cip bag...den went shopping with my mum...hehe body shop..swarvoski...tangs...yeap...so fun...wanted to buy boots but erm haha 100 plus nvm i told my mum to buy for me as b-dae gift lor...hehe...next on the shopping list would be boots man...yeap...just came home frm bball...damn tired lor...*coughs* den haven recover frm my sickness of which i din go to sch for 2 days...yeap going to shower now den sleep...bYEs

Saturday, August 23, 2003

finally back at my comp again haha...phew...bin bz with my surprise...yeap...it takes alot of effort k...=) wonder if i have a bf next time will i be so nice to him haha...just remembered today while @ far east went into some shop that sells old toys...yeap den i love to look at the disney snow globes esp all those with the disney princesses so nice...so sweet...hmm if next time got bf den he give me...so nice...hehe...but those snow globes aren't exactly the cheapest thing in the shop hehe...yeap oh that like slightly lifted my mood...yeap...back to depressing stuff...aww man my life is like so totally screwed...being with my class makes me truly happy it ain't a facade behind the depression...but once some things happen u just keep falling...eternal darkness...u never reach an end...wan to cry also cannot cry...crying alleviates pain...yeap...makes me feel better after a nice long one...

Friday, August 22, 2003

haix so sian today was a sian day was sleeeping thru some "fuel cell" talk which sounded like few cell...wad lousy english...coming frm a lecturer frm NTU sheesh...yeap sch ends early today...yIpPeee...went to orchard with shaun and qing qing...took a long time to set off frm sch coz once we were in the canteen shaun went to talk to his bandmates...den qing headed for shermaine...den i turned to my left and saw terence and weixiang...so started talking non-stop haha...haha vanadalised the walls @ far east...try to look out for the 1t26 msg with something abt TSL...haha...shHh =X den we walked abt shopping kindly neglecting shaun as we went into all the girly shops haha...sorrY shAunNn...yeap...den walked to taka...went into body shop @ scotts yeah...den shaun was outside den he came in and told me he saw alex and clifford and peter? haha yeap...erm saw selina kj michael jasmine and edwin at wisma...yeap...eh reminded me abt stuff...sort of like spoilt the rest of the outing...yeah...den me and qing like stoned at the fountain...while stoning saw ziyang and his fren he so dao lor..bleah...yeap...mabbe becoz i din smile la...was like too sian to smile...den we started on this shopping madness zipping in and out of all the shops...yeap...den went home...so tired man...leg pain...din buy anithing...haix my necklace snapped damn it...now i cannot wear my ring and pendent...shit...yeap...aiyah wadevvva...

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

hilarious: you are as funny as the cheekiest guys
in class and know everything thats happening on
TV and all the hot places to chill. you aren't
a typical bubblegum princess, you pride
yourself on your musical picks and your
attitude. sometimes you get carried away and
often get scolded for that, but otherwise if
people want to have fun then you're the person
they'll come to! you can be as girlie as
britney when you're in the mood and as hard
assed as pink when you want. your mates love
you for being so; fun, interesting and
unpredictable, you go girl!


what kind of girl are you?
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aiyah...din go sch for 2 days liaox...haha sick...i rather be in sch and not be sick la...den eh hehe kaijuan lost my baby photo...my favourite oneee...the one where everyone saes i look like a puppy...aniwae haix...nvm just hope that with the help of a miracle i can get it back...yeap...too tired and sick to type long aniwae nothing interesting...

Monday, August 18, 2003

WHEN LOVE MET MADNESS

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices wandered bored, not knowing what to do.

One day, they were all gathered and bored more than ever when Ingenious had an idea: "Why don't we play hide and seek?" All of them liked the idea, and immediately the mad Madness shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!" Since no one else was crazy enough to seek for Madness, Madness leaned on a tree and started to count, "1, 2, 3..." As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.

Tenderness hung on the horn of the moon; Treason in a pile of garbage; Fondness curled up between the clouds; Lie said he would hide under a stone but he lied and hid at the bottom of the lake; Passion went to the centre of the earth; Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking....

And Madness continued to count, "79,80, 81,82..." All the vices and virtues were already hidden by then, except for Love, whom as undecided as he is, did not know where to hide. And this should not surprise us because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love.

Madness was already at "95, 96,97..." and just at the moment when she arrived at hundred, Love jumped into a rosebush and there he hid out. Madness then shouted, "I'm coming! I'm coming!" and as she turned, the first one she saw was Laziness, thrown to her feet because he didn't have any energy to hide.

Then she saw Tenderness in the horn of the Moon, and Lie at the bottom of the lake, and Passion in the center of the earth... Discovering them one by one, finding all of them but one. Madness was getting desperate, unable to find the last missing one, until Envy, envious for having been discovered, whispered to Madness: "You are lacking Love, and he is hiding in the rosebush."

And Madness took a wooden pitchfork, and stabbed at the rosebush, and stabbed and stabbed, till a heartbreaking shout made her stop.

After the shout, Love came out covering his face with his hands, and from between his fingers run two threads of blood, out of his eyes.

Madness anxious to find Love had took out Love's eyes with the pitchfork. "What have I done, what have I done?" - she shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?" And Love answered, you can't restore my eyes, but if you want to do something for me, you could be my guide.

From that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

Sunday, August 17, 2003

Scorpio - B Type

Personality: Controlling your rolling temper is the best measure to take, if you would like your friends to remain beside you. Other than that your chirpy personality gravitates people toward you.

Love Tendency: Even when it comes to men, you are direct and honest. If you like them you tell them and if you don't, you tell them too. You don't see anything in front of you once you fall deeply in love with someone. This might be a time of happiness for you but friends and family around you worry about you constantly that you are too involved in this relationship. You have to learn how to balance this and your other responsibilities.

Life: You are destined for a great future. A charming family and husband will be a part of this life. But don't expect everything to be too content with your life but rather expect the unexpected. Otherwise, things will hit you with a fry pan out of nowhere. Another suggestion is to be wise where you spend your money. You tend to relieve your stress by means of shopping but try not spend it on frivolous items.

Saturday, August 16, 2003

love is like friendship wad u give out u might not get in return and some day u will regret u gave too much and not get anithing in return but for genuine love u would be happy for that certain someone no matter where he or she is or who they are with =)

How deeply in love are you?
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sometimes everyone is in denial like me...i am seriously not fine...u know it u see it but there are things i can't say...sometimes it is so much easier to talk to a neutral party who is not embroiled in anithing...it isn't that i do not trust u or anything but too many people might just complicate the matter more complicated den it already is...for those who have been concerned abt me...like angelina and kaijuan...yeah i thank u...but some things are not meant to be said to some...

i dunno life sux but i'm getting on i guess everyone elses life is though...everyone learns the world does not stop for u when u are down...if u dunwanna pick yrself up and expect sumone else to help u den...to the people out there...erm u can continue waiting...and den when u decide to pick yrself up and start again...u realise u have thrown so faaaaar back and away frm anione else that there's nothing u can do...yeah...everyone has their life except me...so dumb...haixxx...surprised to see me posting this blog so early? this sat is the only sat i haven been to sch in a long long time...usually saturdays have been bball days...but now? haix...yeah...every sat i wouldn't be home...aww man this sux...yeah but nvm...still got my class =)

Thursday, August 14, 2003

talked to quite a few people these few days and everyone gave me the same reply...it's not worth it to quit becoz of a few people...for my health yes...for those people...no...hmm i dunno part of me wans to quit so i dun have to face some people...but another part of me says that if i quit wad abt those whom i want to see? but if i dun quit eh i wun have time to go and swim la...so i really dunno man...haix...yeap i dunno la so troubleeeddd... =( and i miss my mummy...she's in hong kong now...

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

You are...Pyro/St. John Allerdyce
The fiery human flame-thrower


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Monday, August 11, 2003

hmm finally came to a conclusion...decided to quit the team the cca...rather anithing to do with cj bball...i dunno why...i was sitting there comtemplating all that has happened and den i realised how some people have actually made this decision so much easier for me...at first i was reluctant to give up all i had...mabbe a month ago cj bball and the people in it were the world to me...but now everything has changed...training is training and bball will always be bball...no such thing as frens and bball...surprisingly after making the decision to quit i din feel ani pain...mabbe just abit sad that things had to turn out this way...sure there would be some people i would miss...like philene...and benji and reuben...for always trying to reject my ball...but i still see them out of court and i still get to play bball with alex benji weixiang they all...so not much is lost just that i dun have to face some people...think i shall tell coach after the interclass...wait for it to end first...at least...but it wouldn't make ani diff coz i'm not doing anithing aniwae...so...who knows...i haven found a way to tell anione i'm quitting bball...as in the team...dunno wad cca i would join too...hmm...but quitting bball would give me to time to go swimming hopefully my injury can be saved and if all goes well in 2 to 3 mths hopefully i might and maybe i would join back the team...i dunno i'm leaving my fate to time...oh ya and u know wad...basically people dun qn orders when they are given ani until they think they are right...why qn it now when u din that day? like wad's the fucking point...damn it...

EIFU
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GENERAL LIFE:
EIFUs approach life with enthusiasm and energy. Highly creative and adventurous, they excel at initiating projects and getting them off the ground. However they may not be quite as good at bringing every project through to completion. EIFUs value warm, friendly relationships, and can mistake a more matter-of-fact approach as rudeness or hostility. They value communication and personal growth and their close friendships are characterized by openness and honesty. EIFUs are creative problem solvers with the ability to improvise and see possibilities in all situations.
LOVE LIFE:
Even though two people from any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, EIFU's ideal partner is the IITS, or the IIFS.
WORK LIFE:
Typical EIFU Career Paths: Consultant, Marketer, Psychologist/Counselor, Entrepreneur, Actor, Teacher, Counselor, Politician/Diplomat, Writer/Journalist, Television Reporter, Human Development/Human Resources, Clergy/Religious Worker, Engineer, Art Director, Musician/Composer.

Saturday, August 09, 2003

hmm went to get the x-ray results today...yeap...erm doctor told me i should quit bball la...at that moment tears just welled up in my eyes...so now i'm like stuck no where here nor there...yeap...went to seoul garden to celebrate michael's b-dae...din feel like going but fren...afterall must give face...i dunno going out with them feels weird i dun belong la...aniwae...not all of them makes me feel that way...only one person...but nvm...aniwae...ya...went to buy ny's present haha...took very long to choose it...she better like it man... =)

Friday, August 08, 2003

no one will be an intruder in ani frenship it is whether it is yours to keep or not...some things which are yours will always belong to u...others just fade away into nothingness...i feel like everything is fading away...haix...esp my frenship with some...i dun belong aniwhere liao...can't u all just accept the fact things will never be the same...it feels damn weird to be with u all...to me it's all so strained...makes me feel so extra... =(

Thursday, August 07, 2003

yesterday we had interclass den my class lost by like wad 2 pts...stupid people...and it was due to the mistake within the team...shit we could have won...damn~!

hmm today went shopping haha...retail theraphy...went to buy my pants haha new bottom for clubbing liaox yAy...after that i took a walk and spent some time in popular buying this array of purple and pink pens/highlighters thanx to the influence of philene and once i started coming to cj i liked this girly colours...eww...yeap...surprise...den i walked to takashimaya...and replaced my atm card...den i went down to the food court...saw yantong and rachel...and some of selina's classmates...so i ate with them while waiting for selina jas michael and edwin...den kaijuan supposed to come too but she din but jon came instead haha...went to buy michael's present and we bluffed him we were buying a present for selina's cousin den he also believe den he help to choose den he sae nvm la...since selina cousin sure as blur as her...haha...den me and jon just started laughing like mad...haha...and he picked up this purple wallet and said it was suitable for selina's cousin and it's a gay colour man...hehe...yeap...stupid boy...and we liked talked abt how we were going to torture him in sch tml just that i wun be there going to the doctors to get my xray results...bleah...got energy's new cd too haha it's like gd man =) yay...energy rox

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

Which [Smallville] Characters are you?

Are you easily stressed?

Take the SBSP test!

An enthusiastic and optimistic character, you always find a positive side to things and have fun everyday. A lover of the simple things in life, you can sometimes create problems which ultimately lead to adventures.

Which [Seven Dwarfs] are you?

i realise this quiz not very accurate coz i dun feel very happy

Do you need a boy/girl friend now?

Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you?

Monday, August 04, 2003

haix some things will never return to wad it is like before...hmm now it feels weird...like there's nothing much to sae...i dunno people drift apart? hmm trying hard not to fail my tests now...physics was quite a breeze...hehe with a little referencing of definitions...never bothered to memorise ani...let's hope tml will be a better day haix

you xie shi shi wu fa hui dao guo qu

Sunday, August 03, 2003

hmm just looked at my last msg i posted in my tag board...realised i sounded quite suicidal...haha...that is like bad...aniwae...was suicidal at one pt of time in sec 4...was quite tempted to jump frm the 8th floor...but it would not have looked pretty...hmm aniwae...i lost my wallet on tuesday...sumone was so kind as to return it on sat =) bless the kind soul...there are nice people in singapore afterall...

hmm today went sch for bball...yeah nothing new...nothing to sae either...den went to eat lunch with reuben hari joel jasmine edwin michael and selina...plus edwin's classmates...eh...was another quiet affair...michael lost his wallet AGAIN...rite...nothing new there...eh...ya...den just came home frm nianying's house...yay...shi jie mo ri rox...aniwae...ya...was listening to by linkin park den the lyrics so meaningful...coz it's abt sumone trying to find sumwhere he or she belongs...sounds like me...though

Somewhere i Belong

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find /that I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere i belong

angie wrote on 12:19 AM.

Saturday, August 02, 2003

yesterday went to nianying's house to play piano yay...so fun tml i'm going later again...
right and abt that...hmm i used to feel so close to edwin jasmine and michael but now i'm drifting further and further away frm them...i hardly talk to them at all...even though we still hang out but i dun feel happy...everything is like so tensed...haha...now it's like selina michael edwin and jasmine...hmm i dunno...mabbe i should like stop hanging out with them or sumthing...coz i experienced it before...soon people will start to sae u are extra...and aniwae...nowadays i dun even know wad they are talking abt...so i dunno...aniwae...i guess it's partly becoz of the inter class bball thing...i mean first of all i dun even wan to be the organiser...and yest coach ask me whether i got do anithing...i mean like...jasmine and selina settle everything...like before they tell me...wad u wan me to do...i mean they can have the pts...not as if i'm in dire need of ani...so why put me in charge...sheesh...

angie wrote on 4:41 PM.