Wednesday, November 29, 2006

you picked up the gun.
you pulled the trigger.
and shot me there,
where it hurts the most.
and as i lay there bleeding
you said, "sorry. i didn't mean to."
too late,
im already dead.

Monday, November 27, 2006

i hope i get my xmas wish this year.
the very same one i want every year.
but i doubt so.

unless you can make it come true for me.

i dont know who you are.

-edit-
i think imma leave the country.
you know what,
i think disneyland might actually care whether i have a happy christmas.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

yay the rain did not stop plans to play basketball.
hoho.

then the ball hit my face.
which caused my specs to give me a rather deep cut on my nose bridge.
now i looke like someone punched me.
bff says its battle scars.
HAHA.
right.

but not cool one lor not like someone caused it.
i wish someone would punch me.
yay.
(:

Saturday, November 25, 2006

went to school today to meet val and st to study psy.
(:
after that i meet lydia in town.
we went to watch just friends.
(:
its good.

tml's saturday.
hope that its gonna be a better day tml.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

im at home alone now.
watching all the useless tv programme shows that i dont watch,
cos no one is at home now except me.
):

i miss my mummy and daddy!
and my annoying brother.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

back to basics

let us go back to the start,
i wanna repair my broken heart.

the one you broke so easily,
i swear my love doesnt come free.

alleviate my pain,
with this passing rain.

may i never love again,
for i wish to be sane.

the happy funeral

she seemed so happy,
with that smile,
the one that stretched a mile.

but her heart bled.
she who smiled with a bleeding heart,
had never been happy from the start.

now shes no longer here,
shes buried with her tears,
and we no longer fear,

cause she has found the happiness she deserved,
in a sacred land up above,
surrounded by love.

my empty soul

the sharp pain in heart,
reminds me that we have grown apart.
let us go back to the start.

when you were mine,
and our fingers entwined.
in your embrace,
face to face.

that fateful day,
you went away,
there in my sorrows i lay.

as cold as stone,
chilled to the bone.
i was alone,
how could you have left me on my own.

my heart soon froze,
and wilted like a rose.
my feelings expressed in a prose.

of what used to be mine,
and faded with time.
in the depths of my soul,
lo and behold,

the emptiness of my soul.

Monday, November 20, 2006

yay finally.
its the end of the research paper.
hoho.
(:

anyways right.
teehee.
tml is the last day of the 2nd sem.
whoot.
(:

7 more sems to go la.
another 5 more before i i might be going to NY to finish my degree.
(:

Sunday, November 19, 2006

fade away

there you left me,
alone and cold,
how could you ever be so bold.

when i look at you,
all i see is the everlasting divide between us,
how did this love diminish so fast?

as memories flood through my mind,
i drown in these thoughts so divine.
and as tears fall, im frozen in time.

i choose to leave silently,
you choose to ignore me blatantly.
i wonder if we were ever meant to be.

Friday, November 17, 2006

havent blogged in a few days.
anyways everything went by in a whirl.
with the UGC quiz and everything.
and hanging out with my bff.
(:

i kinda enjoy going to school nowadays.
alright.
better go work on my research paper now.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

i had training today.
i have a UGC 111 quiz tml.

today only julie karen sam and this 2 other girls went for training.
oh well at this rate we dont need to take part in IVP cos. not enough people
boohoo.

oh wells.
nvm.
i want more happy days.
((:
today was quite a happy one.

Monday, November 13, 2006

ok i din do too badly for all the tests.
(:

did moderately ok for econs.
did quite well for english. happy (:
well this sem isnt too bad after all.

went to watch the covenant with mingxue today.
anyway EVERY girl should watch it.
the guys are damn FUCKING hot.
theres like a fucking hot guy for every type.
theres the decent one.
and the brooding one.
and the bad boy one.
and the mr has it all.
(:
their bodies are fucking hot too.
whoot.

anyways theres training tml.
whoopeedoo.
(:

thank you for being so sweet.
and really one of the best buddies anyone can have.
(:

Sunday, November 12, 2006

do you think that we can be more than just friends?
or is that the only thing we have in common?
are you worth that sacrfice?
will you ever be mine?

now im not so sure i want that anymore.
because we have drifted apart,
definitely not back to the start.
but just apart.

like we have never met.
not caught like a fish in your net.

although im depressed,
i yearn to see you in the face.

of what that was never mine,
and never will be mine.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

today i just totally slacked off at home.
but then again whats new.
went to get cake for my ahgong and popo.
cos today is my lunar birthday.

went to jack's place for dinner.
its so different from last time can.
im amazed.
and its good food.
like totally la.
im contented.

(:

tml is basketball day.
yays.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

baked brownies today.
bahh.
i hope everyone likes them.
i dont.
i still think my cheesecake is the best.
(:

went to watch step up after sch with joa.
omg.
its damn good la.
i wanna watch again ok.
before that,
went with joa to vi'lage for dinner or is it vil'age
whatever la.
but its just marche.
nothing changed save the name.
much of the decor and layout was retained.

and my new sneakers are dirty ALREADY.
im damn depressed.
):

alrights.
damn tired.
im gonna go sleep.

hoho.
today is a happy day can.
(:

i saw julie in school.
and spoke to her.
poor thing-
kenna a cut that required stitches and a black eye.
damn cool la.
i want.
battle scars.
bff says im scary and mad.
(((:

after school,
me bff and christine went to J8.
we ate thai express.
ahh i realized that ive been missing out on alot can.
thai express is good stuff.
(:
i bought my converses.
last pair in my size summore.
and a baking tin.
brownies tml.
(:

hoho.
im in a relatively good mood.
except that i just woke up from a nap.
and i cant sleep.
great-

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

just got home from yet another cancelled training again.
my god.
i feel so victimized.
puii.

well got to play ball with weiling and geok today.
(:
and michael and hongjie.
and these few other guys that i dont know.

doing my UGC 111 now.
my god.
damn hard can.
):
lucky it was done before training.

yay thurs im gonna bake brownies.
(((:
i hope you get better soon.

i better study for PSY 101 quiz later also.
i bought a vcd today.
the 3rd bring it on movie.
i just love to watch cheerleading and dance shows.
the choreography is amazing.
(:

anyways onwards.
my sem is ending soon.
the end is near.
i can see my holidays already.
my parents are going away on the 21st which is a tues.
until sunday.
all hell is gonna break loose.

i love it la.
((:

Monday, November 06, 2006

that abyss so deep

driven over the edge by you,
it made my heart leap,
into that abyss so deep.

as your presence fades,
im left without an aid.
who will save me,
from that abyss so deep.

as reality sinks in,
i sink even further,
into that abyss so deep.

as i go under,
my breath leaves me.
will you save me,
from that abyss so deep.

turn back time

time flows forward,
never backward.

so does the earth,
as it revolves clockwise,
never anti-clockwise.

and as you move on,
looking forward,
never backward.

all i see is your back,
never your front.

the more i yearn,
the more i forget,
what it's like to to be in your embrace.

as your back fades into the horizon,
i gradually forget the features of your face.

turn back time,
won't you please.
so i may see your face,
and be in your embrace.

the forgotten summer romance

when the end of summer arrives,
you push me away,
as we drift further apart,
of what was not meant to be.

but summer romances are never meant to be forgotten.
of bright yellow daffodils,
and lying in the meadows.
of green green grass,
in hours that always last.
under the eternal sunshine we lay side by side,
that way we wanted to stay forever.

as the end of summer falls upon us,
you fade and drift away with the wind,
like withering petals and falling leaves.
as the bright colours of the rainbow swirl into a homogeneous shade of brown,
you swirl away in nothingness,
leaving behind dust.

let us go back to the start,
before the days of summer.
so that i may walk down another path,
a path away from you,
away from pain,
away from heartbreak.

as i close my eyes,
and the tears flow steadily,
like a light summer's drizzle,
the summer that year seems exceptionally clear,
in its technicolour splendour and brilliance.
but i know its only the dream i look back upon,
to gain solace in times of loneliness.

and so marks the end of our summer romance,
and the beginning of eternal pain.
how do i forget a summer romance?

Sunday, November 05, 2006

its a sin for someone as hot as edison chen to exist la.

i swear i have singapore's most deformed fingers.
thanks to basketball.
this SUCKS ok.
hrmph.

okay my life isnt exactly all fine and dandy now.
because something's missing.

thinking about THE tuition kid makes my blood boil.
my god.

anyway yesterday i went out with bff and bbf.
haha fun. as always. (:
after that i met ah lam and charissa.
they treated me to fish and co. dinner for my birthday.
yay.

after that eric santhya rene edmund and priyanka came to pick me up from PS.
we went to chongpang for supper.
then we sent edmund home.
then we sent priyanka home.
then we bought drinks and went to macritchie to sit.
(:
i got home at 4 plus.
hur.

woke up late today.
lazed in bed with a couple of good books.
went for the usual saturday basketball session.
((:
hehs.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

no one should have to teach my tuition kid.
whoever crosses her path will suffer.
i think shes like all my retribution or bad karma coming back to haunt me.
shes a fucking terror i swear.

my god.
i rather beg for extra pocket money than teach her.

i hate her.
and her dumb dad.

Friday, November 03, 2006

philene let me kope this okay?
haha.
if only love was so simple.

she place a candy in her hand,
and asked him will he care to be her friend.
his eyes sparkled and said love to,
thinking to himself this is so cool.

childish afternoons-
chasing imaginary baboons.
wild nights-
snacking and fights.

under the brightest full moon,
they unite and croon.
nonsensicle love songs,
seemingly so forlorn.

wearing clothes; invisible.
wearing smiles; incredible.
feeling happy; forever.
feeling loved; together.

their souls swirl beneath their every hop.
their hearts beat together with every time they got.
their hands mysteriously find a way to each others.
their kisses melt like fruit loops with milk bubbles.

he made her believe again.
she made him love again.
he made her trust again.
she made him free again.

this ain’t no fairtale story,
upon which parents tend to worry.
this ain’t no drastic witchery,
this bares not a drip of treachery.

something deeper than,
believe it while you still can.
maturity dries what you really need,
let bones remain, who do you wanna kid?

the past has had her life.
it slashed much worse than a knife.
yet the hope she saw in the blue.
together with the spirit, the flame grew.

it ain’t just love and passion,
that’s just an understatement.

yesterday i stayed up until 4am to edit gaga's essay.
boo la gaga, your the bbf.

hmm finally went to see the doctor on monday cause im damn annoyed at my own cough

tues was study days.
haha.
i skipped most of my lessons and went to study with joa, bff.
we went to KAP after UGC 111.
i went for training after that.
lucky training cancelled la.
so i din have to train with a sickness and i managed to shoot some balls.
layups.
underbaskets.
i really miss the cjc team.
and all our trainings and the KL trip.
((:

wed was the dreaded test day.
with all the dumb tests la.
UGC 111 quiz, which i did crappily and wrote rubbish.
and
the ECO 181 in-term exam.
im as good as dead la.
):

today i met siew and then we went to have steamboat bbq dinner at marina bay with gladys and david.
im still damn full now.
and we went to this pub for drinks.
called cove.
not bad.
(:

trying to get started on my research paper now.
tml gonna meet lam and charissa for dinner.
yayness.
just spoke to santhya on the phone.
i miss her many many.
(: